Older and wiser

They say those who are wise speak less and listen more.  I guess that is what I am doing now days :D  Either that or I am just lazy and haven't posted in awhile.  I changed my layout and that is all you are gonna get from me right now.  I hope to be back and post soon, but don't hold your breathe.

Last post of my twenties :)

I don't have much to say in these last few minutes of the day but I thought if I didn't take the opportunity it would soon be gone, literally!!  Tomorrow is my 30th birthday.  So far it doesn't seem to be a big deal and I don't think I am bothered by it (as so many tend to be).  I guess I will know for sure in the morning or once it settles in more.  Maybe as a thirty year old I will be inspired a bit more and get back to blogging :)  My blogging has been pretty minimal on the thoughts, that always run rampid but are genrally boring, and more about the pictures I mess around taking.  Call it moods, call it inspiration, call it silly....but I tend to focus my efforts on a picture idea that strikes me and then blog about it.  No surprise, I have never liked writing or even much literature for that matter.   I would like this to change.  There is some amazing stuff out there.  Changing this has been slow.  I ripped through a couple of chick novels on vacation in March and am currently reading a memoir.  No, I don't really think those count but the memoir is a step in the right direction.  It's not a bad book but so far all it has done is make me want to travel back to Italy.  I am also attempting to read the Bible consistantly, also not an instantly successful endeavor but progress none-the-less.  So skip the amazing inspiration that you have looking at 30 and settle for this meek update.  Goodnight.  Next post I will be older and wiser ;)

Orchid bloom

Hard to believe this happened over night!!  Below is the pic I took yesterday as it was coming out of a loose bud and today here it is, bright eyed and shining.

Sun

We had a beautiful day yesterday and my indoor flowers loved it!!  This is my Aunt Dee's violet and it hasn't bloomed since the year I got it.  It was from her funeral and I tried really hard to get a violet that day because she was a purple lover and it would remind me of her.  This past fall I repotted it in some soil with African Violet food and apparently that and a little sun is what it needed :D  I am so happy to see "her" again.  A little touching that she shows up with buds and flowers in the days surrounding Jarod's grandfathers passing.

Friends

Days like today are when a good friend is all you need.  I am so glad to call our family our friends.  Grandpa's memorial was touching and very nice.  Afternoon was enjoyed in the back yard.

Day 14

Just an update. Nothing special about the picture or the post...not to me anyways.  Seed starts are growing and attempt to stunt them are only minimally working.  These are the beans...a solid 10" tall.  Corn is probably 6" tall.  Peppers are showing up more along the lines of what I thought would happen, just showing their first true leaves.  Garden still needs to be tilled up and the transistion of these outdoors hasn't yet started due to a dip in the weather and rain. 

Life Cycle

Today was tough.  Life is a beautiful, delicate dance.  We all have a place and time.  Touch others when you can make them better for it.  Let loved ones go and know they have made you better for knowing them.  It isn't always fair, we don't always understand. 

Growth

Well the seeds I started have grown like weeds. (Let's just hope they aren't weeds) I am not really sure this is a good thing. They appear to be out growing thier pods and it has only been 10 days since I planted them. I fear it is still too early to take them outside so I think I will try and stunt their growth the rest of this week, acclimate them to outdoors over the weekend, and start the garden a little early this year. Weather has been nice early this year so we can hope that the threat of frost is over or that they will survive any frost they may suffer. It is Michigan and so I never take the sun/warmth as a given until say.... August. Enough about the plants. I am sure we have covered that over and over by now.

A wierd weekend for me and it has spilled into the early week. Not sure I can put my finger on it. Easter, beautiful weather, new life to celebrate but I just felt beneath it all. I believe I have my reasons but oh how I wish I could control how they affect me. It isn't fair to me or those around me to succumb to them. I don't like the view I have and the person it makes me. I don't want others to be hurt by the person I am or am not because of how I feel. I think a big part of overcoming it is to look at it differently. I struggle with that. I say I can but doing so is much more difficult. I think devloping a game plan could help but not sure that is possible at the present time. Back to changing my attitude. I am sure I have lost you at this point but that is ok. Maybe I haven't and that is fine too. I don't mind being transparent on certain things but I don't really want to explain them either. Maybe what I describe is universal. It can mean something entirely different to each person and can be different each time depending on the situation. I know for me it really applies to several things going on in my life. I don't want sympathy or help from anyone... please don't think that is why I am posting this. This is my thing and I know it is for me to figure out. A big part of the problem is when you think someone else is responsible for your state of mind. They are not. Only I get to change it and it is my call...do I want better? *I warned you I was going to vent :D

"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."
- George Bernard Shaw

Morning dew

Because I am awake to see it, because it means the days are warm, because seeds are sprouting, because green is replacing brown.

Lots to do and sun to enjoy. Hoping to balance the two this weekend and spend time with my favorite boys. Easter to celebrate tomorrow.

Spring

Not much creative energy flowing after setting this all up today. Wondering why I did it really :o This will be the general flow of things I believe. A pic to reflect the mood or post. Hopefully they are self explanatory and yet I venture to guess that I will feel the need to explain them none-the-less. So....here is today's pic and my thoughts for taking it. This orchid is my first orchid and almost all last year I watched them in the stores and fought the urge to buy one. It began at Easter when I gave one to my Great-Grandmother Amy who was in town visiting. I couldn't justify paying full price to buy myself one, so the stalking began. Finally in November I broke down and allowed myself the indulgence once the price in my mind became reasonable (I believe it was $14.99 but can't recall for sure) It is yellow in bloom and I had two beautiful shoots of flowers on it to enjoy all winter long. (Yes!! The flowers really last months!!) When the last blooms fell a matter of weeks ago I knew I could be in for a wait before being blessed with new growth. It does have to be healthy and all to flower and since it is my first I figured I am still learning. To my wonderful surprise this new shoot emerged!! With the weather outside struggling to provide warmth and bring us from our winter woes, this touch of spring inside is delightful. I enjoy it not only for the flowers I hope will soon emerge but also because it means I actually may not kill my first orchid. (not to toot my own horn...moth orchids are the easiest to grow)